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The snowcat accident: run over clearing a New Year's driveway
Renner recounts how, on New Year's Day at his snowed-in Lake Tahoe home, he used a 16,000-pound snowcat to clear the driveway. When the machine slid on ice toward his nephew Alex, he stepped out to talk to him, hit the toggle wrong, was thrown off, and the running machine rolled over him like a tank over a log. It broke roughly 38 bones, cracked his skull, and popped his eye out, but it did not hit his nephew.
- A snowcat is a tank-like tracked machine with no ladder, so you must step on the moving tracks to get in
- The machine slid on ice toward his nephew as Alex unhooked a chain
- Renner was thrown off, then crushed trying to leap back into the cab
- He calls the step-on-the-tracks entry a design flaw for a non-pedestrian commercial vehicle
- His body did not slow the machine, but it missed his nephew
“It crushes me and it rolls over like a tank would run over a log.”
“I break like 38 bones, my skull cracks open... I can see my eyeball with my other eye.”
#accident#survival#story
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45 minutes on the ice: making yourself breathe to stay alive
With his rib cage collapsed onto an already-collapsed lung, Renner had to consciously fight for every breath for 45 minutes before he could be airlifted out. He describes breathing as a one-arm push-up that took every ounce of energy, drawing on Lamaze breathing he learned at age 12 when his mother was pregnant. He triaged ruthlessly: the eye and twisted legs could wait, the only immediate need was air.
- Lamaze short-breath technique learned at 12 unexpectedly saved his life
- His collapsed rib cage was suffocating his own lung until his nephew lifted his arm
- He treated survival as a checklist: get air in first, worry about everything else later
- No one else could breathe for him; it was entirely on him
- The first 25 minutes were the toughest, before emergency services could reach him
“If you can't breathe, what are you gonna do? Look for your next breath.”
“It took every piece of physical energy I could do just to exhale a little bit so I can get a little bit more back…”
#survival#breathing#focus
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Dying on the ice and being pissed off to come back
Renner describes his heart rate dropping to 18 beats per minute as he slipped away smoothly and peacefully, a state he found beautiful and full of love. When something brought him back into his 'busted body', his reaction was annoyance at having to return. A neighbor who worked in medicine confirmed she saw him go, his face turning colors like a chameleon.
- His heart rate lowered to about 18 bpm as he faded gently, not abruptly
- He experienced the passing as peaceful, electric, and loving
- He was annoyed, not relieved, to be revived
- The only thing you take with you when you die, he says, is the love
- A medically-trained neighbor witnessed the moment
“It's the only thing you take with you when you die is the love.”
#near-death#perspective#love
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Quitting oxycontin cold turkey: worse than the accident
About four weeks into recovery Renner cracked a tooth and felt pain break through his oxycontin, which made him question why he was on it. After a tooth extraction he went cold turkey and endured three and a half days of uncontrollable crying, shivering, and cold sweats. His pain-management doctor warned that no one should quit that way and that a two-week taper is needed. Renner's takeaway: get off opioids as fast as safely possible and find other ways.
- Pain breaking through the oxycontin made him question the drug's value
- Cold-turkey withdrawal brought three and a half days of crocodile tears and cold sweats
- He describes it as worse than the accident itself
- His doctor said to taper over at least two weeks, not quit abruptly
- His recommendation: get off opioids as soon as possible and find alternatives
“I cried for like three and a half days straight and shivered and cold sweats... It was way worse than the accident.”
#opioids#withdrawal#recovery
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Two goodbye notes and the gift of no regrets
In hospital, on machines and expecting the plug to be pulled, Renner wrote two goodbye notes, one to his family and one to his daughter, and found he had no regrets and was ready to go. He treats that confirmation as a gift that validated how he had been living and a mandate to keep going the same way, with 'no bad days' for the rest of his life.
- He wrote goodbye notes expecting to die on the machines
- He discovered he had no regrets and was ready to go
- That confirmation became a gift and a validation of how he had lived
- He now commits to 'no bad days', only bad moments
- Seeing 'behind the curtain' left a lasting knowingness and peace
“I wrote two goodbye notes, one to my family, one to my daughter. And I had no regrets.”
#mortality#regret#perspective
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Fame flipped: being seen as the man, not the character
Renner reflects on how the accident changed his relationship with fame. Where fans once demanded selfies mid-dinner as if owed them, he now gets tender, thoughtful street exchanges about his recovery. The platform shifted from selling a movie to talking about health, overcoming obstacles, and real human experience, which he finds far more personal and energizing because there are willing ears.
- Pre-accident fame felt like a constriction with everything scheduled
- Fans once treated selfies as something he owed them
- Now exchanges are tender and about his recovery, not the character
- The platform shifted from promoting films to discussing real human experience
- He values being seen as the man he is, not a cardboard cutout
“It's more about the man that I am... something much more real and something really quite tender and beautiful.”
#fame#identity#connection
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Avengers, Hawkeye, and using fame as a conduit to kids
Renner reflects on being part of the Avengers ensemble, from trading foam props in ridiculous costumes to forming a 13-year found family with matching tattoos. He realized playing a hero kids could watch gave him a real voice with children, which he channels into his RennerVation Foundation for foster and disadvantaged youth. Playing a darker role, he notes, would never have given him that conduit.
- The Avengers began as a collective ensemble and grew into a found family
- The cast has matching tattoos signifying their bond over 13 years
- Playing a hero gave Renner a genuine voice with children
- He funnels that into his foundation for foster and disadvantaged youth
- A darker role like a villain would have blocked that conduit to kids
“That became such a beautiful payday for me... plant some seeds of hope for them.”
#avengers#philanthropy#purpose